Chaos! Can You Find Peace?

It was very early.  So early in fact the sun hadn’t bothered to wake up just yet so there was no light streaming into my bedroom.  I could barely peel my eyes open to peek at the clock.  It was 5:18.  My baby girl was snuggled up beside me in the bed.  I had gone to get her from her crib sometime in the night though I don’t remember when.  It was a groggy, faint memory.  I awoke because she was starting to fuss.  It was way too early for her to be up!  The day would be marked by crankiness if I didn’t get her back to sleep quickly.  I reached over and tapped off the alarm clock before it went off in just a couple of minutes.  Then she’d surely be awake!  I pulled her close and slowly she settled back down.

Unfortunately I must have dozed off too because the next thing I knew I had another warm body pushing up to me in bed.  It was my Noah who was already at full throttle as he described his plans for his next Lego creation.  “Mommy, I need a Lego fire dog because I want to build to fire stations and fire stations need fire dogs and I need to find one so he can ride on the fire truck next to the firemen on the way to fire because he’ll need to help them put out the fire before it gets too big!”  He said all in one breath before I could even crack an eyelid.  My first thought was that he too was awake way too early.  Then I got a look at the clock!  6:30!  Darn it!  I overslept!  Not a great start to the day.  Now I’ve got to cram more into less time.  Lovely!

I crawled out of bed, a child under each arm and staggered to the kitchen.  I’m not really a morning person if you couldn’t tell.  My tea maker called my name. Yes, tea.  I love me some tea!  Coffee is for desperate times.  This morning I was pretty desperate but we don’t really  have any coffee in the house.  So it was green tea.  I drank my first sip and I was off and running.  I’m challenging myself to put my best into everything I do today.  Will I be successful?  I’ll tell you something, as I type it is only 10:35am and I’ve accomplished a lot today.  I am proud as I feel I am doing my best.  Was I perfect?  No way!  Yes, I raised my voice at my boys.  I promised myself I wouldn’t do that today!  Okay, time for a restart.  Every minute can be a new beginning as long as one is sincere about truly starting over and doing things different.

What’s ahead today?  More editing, more school work for the boys, more cooking, more cleaning, more laundry, more driving here there and every where.  We’ll actually have to eat dinner in the van today.  Doesn’t that sound like fun?  Yes, I packed two activities too tightly together.  Not my fault!  When I signed my kid up for soccer they could NOT tell me what day or what times he’d have practice.  So it is what it is.

Do I have peace in my chaos?  Yes!  Life is very very good.  That is as long as I have one day a week of down time.   And thank God tomorrow is my day!  Well, after the dentist appointment I totally forgot about!  Always something!  How do you find your peace?

Happy Monday everyone!

My husband recently took the photo below.  Mommy and Joyanna at one of the boy’s many activities.  A pretty typical scene from a pretty typical day!


A Photo I Love! Despite the Flaws!

Photos can be many things.  They can be beautiful works of art that inspire emotion and interpretation.  They can be spectacular visual creations that brighten a dark space or tie all the elements in a room together.  Photos can make a statement, have an impact, declare a thought or idea.  Photos can be used to help and heal or to tear down and break apart.  Photos are also spectacular for freezing a special moment in time.

This photo of my two boys was taken during a recent family weekend getaway.  I just thought they looked so cute sleeping curled up together like this.  It was taken with my little point & shoot.  The lighting was terrible and the on camera flash made it worse.  It was snapped as fast as possible so as not to disturb the sleeping beauties.  There is nothing technical or artful about this photo.  One might call the composition boring.

WHATEVER!  It is a very special moment in time for this Mommy!  It says so much to me about who they are right now and about their relationship together.  I want to take this photo and blow it up as big as my wall and remember it forever.  I’m sure it’ll find multiple homes in our family photo albums.  I love it and that is all that matters, right?  Before long they’ll be well grown beyond this stage and I’ll treasure this photo all the more.  I think I need to take more snap shots like this.